oh to back in jacksonville

I'm ready to go back
I can't wait
but it will propbaly be a while til i come back to i guess i need to enjoy it
abd lauras home so it should get better

hopefully tonight is fun
new years

going to the movies with kelly and kelly ann
should be fun we're going to see JUNO im so excited i really want to see it

i feel like i've been gone forever i wish i had a place to stay i'd so go back soon but i really wouldnt matter whats the difference between thursday and sunday not much

its so werid being home this long. i feel like a lazy bum i have nothing to do spend to much money that i dont have and hang out with people i hate high school drama i never had that much crap going on in high school but watever

i guess im gonna get ready to go out

quick update

I know its been a while since i've written anything
it's not that I've been to busy but its just that there really isnt much to write about.

Christmas has come and gone and everythin was great. It was a nice time to spend with my family and friends.

I've hung out around. not doing much but still ending up in trouble(whats new right) its just hard being home. i got so use to doing everything on my own not having to wait for others or coming and going when i please. i wish i had a place to stay in jacksonville cause i'd totally go back already. i'd be there in a heartbeat. its harding being home i feel so outta the loop on things

next week should be better since laura will be back
i really miss her and her friendship. i love that girl.

i'm excited to go back to jax. not for school but because i realy love the people that i've meat there and the stmosphere plus i really dont think my classes should be that hard this semester either. I might get a job but im not sure yet.

i guess when theres more going on i;ll let you know

a little update

so im home
and i've been for a couple days
but i've done the most random things and hung out with the most random people
but i got to see people i probably wont see for the rest of break or at least the ones i hung out with on saturday

but im having fun

i dont know i really dont want to sit here all week and do nothing

i'm tired and i dont know what to write so im done

later

oh how i love finals

I LOVE UNF
i feel like i belong here
that i should of skipped high school and went straight to college
i love college and doing everything and nothing at the same time
i love that im able to just hang out with friends anytime i want and never really go anywhere

i like to sit back and just watch people and not say much its just who i am but i started of this semester not really going out there and making friends and i really wish i did because now i have so much fun with them and love being around them

its amazing how much we're all alike but different at the same time

college is going great I coulnt ask for anything better

I really should be studying for my final but i have all day tom to do it

i'm tired and kinda just want to sleep but its only 11.

im moving on if its meant to be its meant to be but im not going to persue anything if theres nothing there
oh well i love being friends and the relationship that we have so thats good enough for me

i guess im going to get ready for bed
after my final tom i'm going to pack up
and leave for a3 and a half weeks
its crazy
im gonna miss jaxs so much
not nessicerially jax but my friends and everything

peace out for now

finals mode

so it's offical finals time
well actually 24 hour quiet time starts at 5 but my 24 hour study time starts now
i have 4 online test to take
4 math exams to memorize
about 25 european conutries to know
2 chapters on urbalization to read
1 parking pass to get
and hopefully some sleep

at least I only have 2 finals to take
one monday and one tuesday so i might be able to come home wed thursday at the latest probably.

now im off to study

sitting in a group study room with cailey and robby
we done this before

peace out dawg

unf parking service is a joke....but robby

You think something as important as you need to get the ploice report on friday but they close at 3 would be a thing to ell someone but i guess they thought that normal people already know what time the police office closes at. It just means i have to get up monday morning if i even go to bed that is and get one to out on my car before i take my final.

i dont need one on the weekend so i guess its fine

i'm tired of it and wish it never even happened i just wish i knew what happened. i feel soooo stupid about it.

im done
gonna take a nap before my long night

Reaching people for all the wrong reasons

Sometimes i feel that i do things for the wrong reasons. Like I gi somewhere or do something because of whose going, who will be there, or maybe the reganition i will get for doing something.

Over the past couple months once a week or so a couple of people go out to the beach and take food to the homeless. but not to feed them cause they're not hungry they get free meals at the mission house but to talk to them. make friends let them know that people care about them. at first i did to go because it was something to do, then i went because of who was going but tonight i realzed that i need to do it for myself and for the people we meet. Some people we meet really appreciate what we do. TOnight we met some people who at first were kinda hesitant about us but in the end really turn out to be great people they were interested in us as much as them. One guy named rock kept thanking us for coming not because we brought them food or hot chocolate but because we spent time just talking to them and making friends. It was really cool. I can see that even though i'm doing this for the wrong reasons that its making an impact on my life. I really like doing it.

At the grove tonight Lance said something that really causght my attention
We're seeking God even when God has already saught after us

it made me think that God choose me and is going to use me and all ineed to do is listen to him more. be the christian i want to be know i can be and need to be. God choose me and i need to take that and run with it.

i'm tired and done studing for now cause i dont get it and it doesnt make it any better that im half asleep and really dont care

oh yea im definitly crushing but im trying to play it cool

first post again..

So i decided to make another blog as sit in the first floor lounge of buliding X at the university of North Florida as i make myself some mac and cheese.

i need to place to write my thoughts about whats going on in my life and the different things God is doing and showing me.

The semesters almost over and i can't believe it
it's so crazy to think that i made it through my first semester of college. I survived and I couldn't be happier with the way things turned out. I have found the friends that I hoped i would. I'm plugged into BCM and I absolutly love it and everything about it. I've found a church that i''m comfortable at and feel that its a growing place for me. My forst semester of college has been everything i hoped for and more. I feel that God is working in my life so much and teaching me to be more like him.

even though some bad things have happened through the semester and this week for sure I still found myself looking on the postive of things. I used to get very down when thigs didnt turn out okay but now o see that things happen for a reason and i try to look at the bright side i guess ar at least i try too i think.

I've been through some homesick not wanting to be here moments at first but i couldn't iagine myself anywhere but here right now

and i'm gonna go before i burn down the dorms with my cooking skills