coffee coffee coffee

The only way i get any really studying done here is to make myself go to the library. with 2 other roommates and the 4th here(one of my roommates bf) i never get much done

So I had some studying to get done (the usualyy reading and homework, test stuff) so I decided that i'd make myself go to the library after bible study to actually get things done. Instead of the library i went to the Fine art building where there was no one in there but me and got all(all that needed be be done tonight or most)my stuff done and it took me less time then i thought. I was really pleased with myself.

The only thing is i drank a grande coffee thinking i might need it. and now I dont and I'm wide awake and everyone else in my room is asleep. well it gave me time to blog.



so today I went to chets and spoke with the middle school and high school pastors. they were very nice guys had nice things to say and offer me a couple positions that I can choose from. So I decided to take some time withmy decision and pray to see where God leads me but to also go and observe each different thing and see what I like best and what would work for me. But I'm really excited for whats going on and whats going to happen.

I think I'm gonna start on my special prooject now

When God speaks he moves mountains

In my freshmen bible study this semester we are studing the book of Philippians.

This upcoming week (as in bible study tom night) we will be discussing Philippians 2
Our challenge for the week was to read through the begining of 2 and apply it to your life

Just so you know this is what the message reads for Philippians 2:1-4

If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

So the last part of the passage is what has really been on my heart the last couple of day

Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourself long enough to lend a helping hand.

Since i've been in jacksonville i've gotten involved in BCM and have been plugged into a church yay for julianne right thats not what im trying to get. i feel that i'm not doing anything to help others, or putting myself aside. I opt out of doing things to hang out with my friends even though i feel as though i should be doing it. I just have this desire to do more with my faith then the surface things that i'm doing. I feel the need to do something more.

One thing that i found that i loved doing was being part of student ministry. It's something I took pride in, a place I wanted to be, and I enjoyed doing things that made it better.

I have felt several times that God's been calling to get involved with the student ministry at Chets.

So i took the first step in that and last night I sent an email to my college pastor at Chets just telling him I how feel and asking him how I go about getting involved with the student ministry and next thing you know I'm on the phone with the high school pastor and now I have a meeting with him and the middle school pastor tom at Chets.

Now i'm nervous, I've never met these men before and their gonna sit down with me and "grill" (for the lack there of a better word) about my Faith and ask me questions that i'm not gonna know what to say and just totally speak nonsense and screw up. But i'm gonna think positively because if this is something that God is leading me towards then I know that he'll lead me to whats best for me and give me the strenght, courage, and words to get through the meeting

to say the least I'm really excited about this and I hope I can find that something that God has been leading me towards

pray for me

i'm so thirsty its crazy

the fact that its almost 2 in the morning i'm up and not really tired blows my mind

the fact that its so hot in my room that im sweating blows my mind even more specially that fact that its freezing outside

i'm done for down
i'm gonna try to sleep so i dont miss class tom.

A hard day at work and a broken arm to show for it

i love my brother
there is no doubt about that
even though we dnt show it alot my brother and i have a great relationship
and its times like these that i wish i could be there for him

my brother was just trying to do something fr himself but it also in the end it helped the family and its cme back to bite him in the butt 2 already

today while at work my brother was helping some girl up and another girl ran into him. he landed on hiis arm wrong anf has a non-broken (or something) fractures. right now he cant play hockey, cant work, and is just not in a altogether good mood. his team plays at the panthers arena next week, they're second in the league and get to go to playoffs, hes worked so hard for this and might not get to play. it's all up to what the orthapedic surgon says. if its not too bad he might get to play but all we can do is pray and wait.

i feel so bad for him he's been handed some low blows lately


the weathers is cold it be nice if it would just stop raining

It's nights like these that make me realize how blessed I truly am with everything

Chinese fire drills in Denny's just have to be the coolest thing ever

My day

Besides class my day was pretty good
i went to the gym and ran 1.5 miles
and then i got a room change
yes i finally decided to move out and im happy about it i met the girls and they seem very nice so i'm excited.

i missed bible study tonight being in that housing meeting but its okay
i'll go to freshmen tom and the grove thursday so i'll be fine


as i look around my room now i think to myself how am i going to get all this crap to my new room.

oh and i'm gonna become a pro lacrosse player by the end of the semester.

and this weather rocks, it maybe a little cold but i love it sooooo much

i'm soo cold

brrrrrr..................

the heat hasn't kicked on yet
it needs to hurry up

Watching FRC online
Matt Miller is teaching
oh how i miss that guy

Going to Pearl tonight
its gonna be fun

My Best Friends Wedding is on

I love this movie


I dont know what to do. I have the opportunity to switch rooms. there is a list of avalible rooms and theres a room that has only one girl in it and she just happens to be a friend of a friend. ai want to move but at the same time i've really become comfortable(i guess) with living in the room im in now. but after tonight i wish i had the roommates that i could hang out with and befriends with. I get along with my roommates now but i couldnt see myself hanging out with them. the thought of moving all my stuff that i just got almost completely settled in again and organized. i cant go to the housing office till monday and they'll hold my bed for 3 days so i guess i just need to pray and let God guide me to where im suppose to be.

i'm also debating on whether or not i'm going to a club named the Peral tomorrow night with some friends. Robby wants to go and he keeps asking us to go we might but im not sure.

i still need to write about last night it was totally an experience but i dont know how to explain it but give me time and i'll let you know

procrastiation

i need to finish reading Plato but i really would rather be sleeping

i've put off reading by organizing my desk and closet and everything
and now there is nothing left ot do but read

tom is the grove and im excited to see everyone

school school school

to take an extra class or to not
that is the question
i dont need to take the class because i need the summer hours but i feel that i have so much time on my hands that a 5th class would be benifical
but it's only the 1st week so i guess if i do have to much time i'll just get myself a job instead

where have all my friends gone? i havent seen a lot of them since i've been here i think its the weird schedule i have

i think i'm done for the night
im gonna get ready for bed and catch up some gossip girl

The Practice of Proactive waiting

Passionately pleading for God to use us is like passionately pleaing for fire to be hot or for water to be wet. God by his very nature uses people. Yet we have cultvaited for ourselves a unwritten theology that we must persuade God to use us to accomplish his plans. It's as if he were determined to use angels or seaphim or the perpetually bowing elders to build his kingdom, and we try to convincehim with our passion and our logic ans our sheer resolve to let us do it instead. So we imagine that we twist his arm until he cries uncle and finally days," Oh, all right. Go ahead and do some work for my kingdom if you must." Friend, understand that serving God to advance his kingdom's dominion on the earth is not something we have to beg him to do, it's something he has already chosen for us. It is hard-wired into our very being to respond affirmatively to this choice of his.

In the Meantime
by Rob Brendle

This totaly makes sense in my life right now. How come I didnt realize it before. I keep asking God to use me, it shouldnt be use me because he already wants to use me i just need to sit down and listen because i know he wants to use. I think it scares me to completely let go of my life and have no control over it. I think that when i did i found the friends i was looking for and I saw the things he did for me. but complete control is hard especially when i just got complete freedom. There is one thing i want for my life to completelt give it to him and to follow his plan he has for me. I see the amazing things he does for those who live for him and give there all for him and i want the happiness that they have. Now im not trying to be envious but the way they live their life just makes me want to be tha better person and live my life for him.

The cry shouldn't be "God, use me" but "God, what else needs to be done"

this book has rasied so many questions for me and i'm only in the first chapter or so. It has made me look at how i Live. I cant wait to see what is in store for the rest of this book